Elsewhere

Skeleton

Skin and bones
Vulnerable
Crack my ribs and make me whole
Come and breathe the air into my lungs
I just wanna be your skeleton

A silhouette is following
Just waiting to break me down
I had it good, that’s what I get
I guess that it’s my turn now

Cut the wires tangled twisted
To find me again
Fracture, break me into pieces
Till all that I am

Skin and bones
Vulnerable
Crack my ribs and make me whole
Come and breathe the air into my lungs
I just wanna be your skeleton
Fix my head, stitch my soul
Find out where it all went wrong
Come and breathe the air into my lungs
I just wanna be your skeleton

A blinding pain
Behind my eyes
Is covering up the truth
Inside my brain’s
A parasite
It’s telling me what to do
Feeding on my happiness like I never deserved it at all,
Feeling like a pessimist when I just wanna laugh through it all

Projector

So light me up my little Projector
And eat me up like Hannibal Lector
Then turn us from a friend into strangers
Cause you'll never admit that you're wrong
Enough's enough, Projector
So sit us down and give a new lecture
Then wear us out like ugly old sweaters
You bummed me out till I wrote a song
Enough's enough, Projector

Shut the fuck up please
You flap your gums until I wanna pull my teeth
You may invade their brain
And wear them down into insane to say
"Oh wow!," "Oh word!?," "That's wild, I agree."
But that cannot be me
I see through every smile like twenty thread count sheets
Apologize or die you'd choose the latter not the right to be a decent human being just for once

I'm talking to a wall again
Why do I even try

Shh, listen more talk less
I've seen the film before and I know how this ends
You tell me how you're right to light relationships on fire
And try to lock us all inside because you're wrong
Look at your success
You shit on all your friends and blamed ‘em for the mess
But I don't need to believe everything that I read, I can see there's a demon that's stealing my peace, a disease that never leaves until I sing through gritted teeth

I'm talking to a wall again
Why do I even try

If stubborn is as stubborn does
You've done enough tonight
I'm talking to a wall again
Why do I even try

Cut Off

I'm a thrill-seeker
Yeah I'm crazy for real
I'm tightrope walker
Stumble head over heels
You're a blown speaker
Buzzin’ inside my ear
Just an overplayed song
That people don't wanna hear

You make me socially awkward
The way you cook up the drama
So now I scan to the room to make an escape
Cause you're my winter in summer
Was such a shock to discover
That feelin safe would be my greatest mistake

You're cut off, so get lost
You're so strung out on my trust cause you abused it to death
You're cut off, so dream on
Cause I'm thinking that I never wanna see you again

Made me so skeptical I can't trust myself
I'm a paranoid pilot flying hands off the wheel
When you're so reckless with deception it's hell
So let's crash and burn quick so we forget how to feel

You make me socially awkward
The way you cook up the drama
So now I scan the room to make an escape
Cause you're my winter in summer
My sleeping pill in my soda
A coma so deep that I'll never wake

You're cut off, so get lost
You're so strung out on my trust cause you abused it to death
You're cut off, so dream on
Cause I'm thinking that I never wanna see you again

Subconsciously oblivious
I never learn
You got me socially awkward
The way you cook up the drama
So now I scan the room to make an escape
Cause you're my winter in summer
My sleeping pill in my soda
A coma so deep that I'll never wake up

You're cut off, so get lost
You're so strung out on my trust cause you abused it to death
You're cut off, so dream on
Cause I'm thinking that I never wanna see you again

Loose Cannon

Soft lines
Cut me like a knife
You make a mess of my head when
You tell me I'm defensive
Can’t help
Keeping me in hell we’r
Spittin’ words with no filter
Going in for the kill you’re

Standing on my back
Can feel my heart start beating faster
When you tell me to relax
You light the match

You got me like a loose cannon
You got me bout to do damage
Go ‘head and take a shot
Inflict it but you’re not
Predicting what I’ll do dammit
You got me like a loose cannon

Train wreck
There ain't nothing left
I’m on the brink of destruction
I can’t think I can’t function
New eyes
I don't recognize me
Giving into my dark side
When you push me this far I’m

Falling on my back
Can feel my heart start beating faster
When you tell me to relax
you light the match

You got me like a loose cannon
You got me bout to do damage
Go ‘head and take a shot
Inflict it but you’re not
Predicting what I’ll do dammit
You got me like a loose cannon

Standing on my back
Can feel my heart start beating faster
When you tell me to relax
You light the match
You got me like I’m
Past the point of coming down
I’m up in arms, you’re out of bounds
You push me, bend me, break me till I snap

You got me like a loose cannon
You got me bout to do damage
Go ‘head and take a shot
Inflict it but you’re not
Predicting what I’ll do dammit
You got me like a loose cannon

Why Do I

Sometimes I write you letters that you'll never read
When I get to drinkin’, I get to thinkin’
I wish you were thinkin’ about me
Sometimes I look for girls that look the way you do
So fucking stupid, started to do it
When I saw you with someone new

It's been 10 months and 20 days
I'm the last thing that's on your brain

So why do I
Still wake up, 2 in the morning
Cold sweats screamin’ your name
Why do I
Get drunk and look at your pictures
Why do I feel this way
Why do I do this to myself
And why do I even try
You don't
You don't

Some nights I think about the last time that we talked
Back in November, maybe December
All I remember's that you called
Me a piece of shit, said you never wanna see my face again
You regret everything we ever did
You're obviously over it
So over it

It's been 10 months and 20 days
I've been wonderin’ the same damn things

As Good As It Gets

They tell me that I’m 10 feet tall
Then tell me why I feel so small
I’d break my neck to have it all
I’m back down on my knees again
I feelin’ like there’s nothin’ left
I’d break my neck, to get ahead

And I think it’s my fault
That I’m hitting this wall
That I built for myself
Cause the minute I get
What I said that I wanted
It’s never enough

Is it as good as it's ever gonna be
What if I peaked too soon
Is it as good as it's ever gonna be
What have I got to lose
There’s gotta be more than this
There’s gotta be somethin’ I missed
As good as it’s ever gonna be
Hell nah
This ain't as good as it gets

Living like i’m on the run
But I don’t even know what from
I can’t go back until I won

And I think it’s my fault
That I’m hitting this wall
That I built for myself
Cause the minute I get
What I said that I wanted
I want something else

Who’s In Control?

Open up my box and pull the string
Am I just a musical machine for ransom
I will only listen if you scream
Lose your voice for me and I will sing your anthem

Living in fear
Living afraid
Hysterical every day
All because I let your poison paralyze me

So tell me who's in control
I'm confused, I don't know
Tell me who's in control now
So tell me who's in control
Is it you? I don't know
Tell me who's in control now
My life is yours to hold

But this wasn't what I signed up for
Spending more stress than I can afford, and then some
Killing me with almost no remorse

Living in fear
Living afraid
Hysterical every day
All because I let your poison paralyze me

So tell me who's in control
I'm confused, I don't know
Tell me who's in control now
So tell me who's in control
Is it you? I don't know

Open up my box and pull the string
Am I just a musical machine for ransom
Living in fear
Living afraid
Hysterical every day
All because I let your poison paralyze me

So tell me who's in control
I'm confused, I don't know
Tell me who's in control now
So tell me who's in control
Is it you? I don't know

Taste Of The Good Life

Don't act so surprised
Gave an inch, you took a mile
Oh what a waste
When you choked on a taste
A taste of the good life

What if you loved yourself less
Try being selfless
Stepped out the haunted mansion
Where you've been livin’
Went from mentor to menace
In a few seconds
From living to a death wish
Like that makes legends

You traded me in
Were you trading up
You cashed in your friends
To get better drugs

But don't act so surprised
Gave an inch, you took a mile
Oh what a waste
When you choked on a taste
A taste of the good life
But don't act so surprised
Buckle up, enjoy the ride
Oh what a waste
When you choked on a taste
A taste of the good life

A miserable magician
What's up your sleeve now
Blamed me for being homeless
When you locked yourself out

You traded me in
Were you trading up
You cashed in your friends
To get better drugs

Where did you go
Cause I don't know
The stranger in front of me
Where did you go
Cause I've been wondering

But don't act so surprised
Gave an inch, you took a mile
Oh what a waste
When you choked on a taste
A taste of the good life
High on your own supply
Buckle up, enjoy the ride
Oh what a waste
When you choked on a taste

Why Not Me

I'm watching my friends all succeed
Honestly, they deserve it
But I'm selfishly over here asking
Why not me
We're all driving to the same place
I'm just stuck in the slow lane
I impatiently wait while they me
Why not me

When I'm down and biting the dust
A little voice is shouting get up
Cause when it hurts
I'm brushing it off
Dig down deep and say

Why not me
With the odds up against me
I'm not gonna let me down
Can't stop me
Might be down for the count but
Don't you ever count me out
I take shots of pain, watch that flicker turn to flame
Dig down deep
Say why not me

Fixated I sharpen my teeth
Underdogs getting hungry
I've been biding my time, I've been waiting
Hide and seek what I'm missing
The thoughts of me giving up fade away
Cause I live it, I breathe it, I can't be defeated
That's when I say

When I'm down and biting the dust
A little voice is shouting get up
Cause when it hurts
I'm brushing it off
Dig down deep and say

Hide and seek what I'm missing
The thoughts of me giving up fade away
Cause I live it, I breathe it, I can't be defeated
That's when I say

Dangerous

This is really my night
Gonna take it right now
Yeah I’m feelin like a Mack truck goin’ downhill
The people on the sidelines screaming slow down
But you can’t kill my vibe
I’m a head case and I’m leading the parade
Rounding up the maniacs, let ‘em out to play
Once you get a taste, no you’ll never be the same
Bring the creatures to life

My hand out the window
Just riding the wave
My cares in the mirror
Just fading away
Yeah I’m superhuman
Don’t need to be saved
Don’t press your luck
I woke up feelin’ dangerous

This ones for the misfits
And all the people on your shit list
And now we’re blowing you a big kiss
Cause we don’t need you now
I’m the little thorn hangin outta your side
You’re digging me a grave cause you wish I’d just die
Turn me to a ghost, now I’m flyin to high

They can’t mess with us

My hand out the window
Just riding the wave
My cares in the mirror
Just fading away
Yeah I’m superhuman
Don’t need to be saved
Don’t press your luck
I woke up feelin’ dangerous

Cordial

Singing at the ceiling
To a swing set melody
Life is like a season
It changes and it leaves
Tried to stop the bleeding
But some wounds never heal
If it's up to me to break it
It won't be even

Tragic
Or traumatic
How these habits
Can become so lethal
Madness
Fade to blackness
Try to thread that needle
Get back, what you give in
Why'd you give in
And believe your lies
Survival by denial
Till you end up solo/so low

Don't call it cordial
If you can't get in touch
Don't call it cordial
If we both hung it up
We can't get back to normal
If we both play pretend
You call it cordial
Yeah we’re so cordial
We can't even call it friends

Drowning in the shallows
Too proud to ask for help
You think I'm off the deep end
But you won't save yourself
I offered you a way out
And you dug in both your heels
Blamed everyone around you
As if it's real

It won't be even
Tragic
Or traumatic
How these habits
Can become so lethal
Madness
Fade to blackness
Till you end up solo/so low

The Magic 8

It seems she finally got a taste
Of fame, caught a break, and critical acclaim
A glass of champagne
She started feeling safe
The black magic 8
No it didn't feel the same

And tomorrow's now misunderstood
Cause it's reading “outlook not so good”
If these signs would point to "yes" she could
Maybe feel the same

So shake the magic 8 until it breaks
And close your eyes and take a leap of faith
Don't be afraid of going your own way
Shake the magic 8 until it breaks

So concentrate and ask again
Are we at the end? We’re starting to begin
And mend, oh but then
Is happiness a trend
A friend, they once said
There's beauty in the pain

And tomorrow's now misunderstood
Cause it's reading “outlook not so good”
If these signs would point to "yes" she could
Maybe feel the same

So shake the magic 8 until it breaks
And close your eyes and take a leap of faith
Don't be afraid of going your own way
Shake the magic 8 until it
It breaks, it breaks, it breaks
It breaks my heart every time
Losing our rhythm and losing our rhyme
Control your fate
And shake the magic 8 until it breaks

As she wipes her tears she understands
That somethings are simply out of hand
So she bides her time and counts the sand
And leans into the pain

Playing With Bad Luck

It's a kinda day
It’s a kinda week
It’s a kinda year
(No)
When you cut and paste
When you’re on your knees
When you’re out of tears
(Damn…)

Examine every scar
I’m auditing my karma
Something just aint addin up
It’s close but no cigar
I’m dancing in the dark cause
Every light keeps shutting off.

I’m playing with bad luck
And she doesn’t give up
Sinking her teeth into my dreams
Again and again, I get up again
I’m playing with bad luck
But now it’s just too much
Sinking her teeth into my dreams
Again and again, I get up again

Goin back in time
In my past life I
Must’ve crossed the line
Because otherwise
It would all be fine
Like a glass of wine

Examine every scar
I’m auditing my karma
Something just aint addin’ up
It’s close but no cigar
I’m dancing in the dark cause
Every light keeps shutting off

Not so harmless, my darlin
Alarming how you scar me
Waiting and praying
Afraid of feeling safe
Shake me, awake me
And save me from this bad dream
Fear setting in, oh my god is it my fault

Examine every scar
I’m auditing my karma
Something just aint addin up
It’s close but no cigar
I’m dancing in the dark cause
Every light keeps shutting off

Peekaboo

Think you’re so clever, when you hide behind your hands and you feel invisible
You’re under pressure, when you tell us all a tale it's a game of true or false

So now you sneak around under my nose
And tell me how the story goes
I'm listening and poking holes
I know
So then I started to connect the dots
You gotta fall to learn to walk
But do you even have the strength to stop
Nah

Quit playing peekaboo
Do you really think I'm stupid
I can still see you
But you always stay the same
And play these childish games
So spare some change
Cause you don't have to hide anymore
Quit playing peekaboo

Hide, you can hide
You can run but you can't hide

So am I selfish to be sick of faking smiles when all you do is play
Pretend you’re helpless, hell at least in hide and seek when you're caught it ends the game

Catch A Break

Why can't I catch a break
When everything's going my way
I trip and fall flat on my face
Same tragedy, different day

My lucks a rain cloud
Follows me around
Soon as I'm up, pour misery down
Where is my coat
Didn't know that I would need it
Foiled my plans
Well I'll be damned
You pulled out the rug
So where do I stand
Losing control
Touch and go, feeling so cheated

Why can't I catch a break
When everything's going my way
I trip and fall flat on my face
Same tragedy, different day
Why can't I catch a break
When everything's going my way
I trip and fall flat on my face
Oh but I know, I'll be okay

Soon as it's good
Soon as it's fine
I get blindsided every time
Down on myself
But I won't sit here defeated
Testing me
Hard to breathe
Where did I go wrong
Climbing through hell

Put it in my hands
Watch it slip away

Better Than This

Wide awake on the couch
Don't what we're fightin’ about
This isn't the first time
Said some things I didn't mean
Acting like we're seventeen
I hate making you cry

Running out of times to apologize

I need to love you better than this
What am I doin’
One more slip and I'm gonna lose you
I got to get my shit together and love you better yeah
Better before you change your mind and slam the front door
Leave me behind and
I think I'd hate myself forever
I need to love you better than this
Cause there's nothing better than this

Swear to God I'll get it right
Won’t turn my best into a lie
I’ll pay more attention
I don't want all of this
To turn into what could've been
A chance at redemption

Running out of times to apologize

Shadows on the ceiling
Like I’m upside and feeling
Like I don’t even know me at all
Waiting for permission
To be everything I’m missing